Yesterday, day 1 of my journey, was pretty much consumed with the typical internal dialogue that goes on when I am denying myself anything.
Maybe you know the 'talk'... go ahead and just have a bite...those chips look so good - maybe I'll just have one... I'm really hungry... I feel weak...I don't care anymore - I'll start tomorrow... a little bit of butter when I cook this chicken won't hurt...give up, you'll never be thin.
Day 1...
Is it just me?
Nah. I don't think so. I believe many people with addictions have this internal battle of words. Generally, before I know it, the words of addiction take over and instead of eating just one Oreo I was talking myself into, I end up eating 10 Oreos.
I suspect alcoholics, drug addicts, and food addicts are quite similar in their relationship with their 'drug of choice.' That is, they love it during consumption and hate it afterwards.
I had to think about it. I'm talking considerable thought. This internal dialogue seems to be triggered by 'denial.' Let's put it in terms of body/mind. My body wants to eat a cookie and my mind is telling it 'no.'
Funny thing is... when I wanted that cookie, I wasn't even hungry. So serious. I had just eaten a sandwich for lunch (but you know, my mouth likes something sweet after every meal).
So, I'm back to that body/mind thing. The body's desires seem so much more powerful than the mind's.
Then, I thought about that word and feeling of 'no' or 'denial.' It's pretty negative, isn't it. That goes against my entire objective: stay positive.
I had to reconstruct that thought. This isn't about no's and denials. This is about 'Hell to the yes!'
In my mind, I started passing out the mental cookies...Remember, I spoke about those yesterday. I started to tell myself - eat whatever fuels your body, makes me strong, makes me feel good - this is about feeling good after all (and we all know how I would feel after 10 Oreos). I literally forced out the negative talk and overrode it with positive talk (aka mental cookies).
It.worked.
Yesterday's Food Intake
Breakfast: Fage 0% yogurt drizzled with organic honey (*check out the health benefits of combining these two - you'll be surprised)
Lunch: 1/2 whole wheat pita stuffed with 2 ounces of sliced turkey (I don't eat processed meat much - every couple of months only, due to high nitrates).
Snack: Trader Joe's Fiberful bar
Dinner: (see below picture) 2 ounces of grilled chicken served over 1 cup of cooked quinoa with grilled veggies (red onion and zucchini); side salad (lettuce, cucumber, tomato, with about 4 croutons), and olive oil/lemon juice (I stay away from bottled dressings).
Snack: 2 peaches, small square of 72% dark chocolate
A word about my food. I eat organic whenever possible. I love to garden, and grow my own. Most of my fruits and veggies consumed are from my garden.
.51 miles on the treadmill
5900 total steps taken
I made it through day 1.
I did it.
It feels good.
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